Chuga chuga choo choo!
Life has been moving very quickly and in all the right ways, well almost...! My art businesses are taking off, while my love and family life are continually strengthening and then there is me: the common denominator...
I have recently been caught up in pushing my art business to a new level as well as my love relationship and completely let go of my time in the process. Creating balance is a continual shifting of energy and remaining focused. Uggggg!
I recognize that my inner work is key to drawing in my business (and personal) success and building relationships. It is so obvious: A recent example..I had a verbal agreement to paint at a huge party and was about to receive a contract and deposit, when I had doubt (FEAR) rise up. At that time I was concerned about getting $ in the bank and not paying attention to my thinking or to knowing - I was disconnected, which set into motion the result of not getting the contract/event!!
Of course I have gotten back on track with giving myself time to focus on my spiritual practice and with that comes great relief because I feel connected again. Ahhhhh!
It is constant: the getting on and off track. Catching our train of thinking from going in one direction or another. Getting caught up in the momentum of life. One instant - one thought is all it takes to shift the energy back in a good or not so good direction. This is the nature of the Universe - in constant motion - moving forward with this truth helps us to roll just with it. The journey then becomes not thinking I need to remain focused, but noticing when my thoughts are not serving my higher purpose.
When I am in it, it is difficult to pull back and correct as it feels like I am on a ride that I can't get off of. The momentum of creating is wonderful, but backfires when it begins to come from the self or ego. It is true that I must create the idea and the action behind it to set it into motion, but the main ingredient of knowing releases it to the force-God-Universe to place it on my path and when ego thinks it's in control all life force is squeezed out! And momentum alone cannot sustain movement to a higher level or the level of the dream in my heart.
Sadly, it is easy to shift into this way of being without even realizing it is happening - especially in our society. Where I can improve is my stepping back and checking myself to make sure I am being what I want to draw in. When I am not connected what am I really creating or allowing to be drawn to me? Questioning statements of the ego helps us to see how crazy it can be to allow it to lead our thinking.
It can be frustrating to feel like I am getting to some sort of deep understanding - in a groove and then suddenly find myself moving enthusiastically in the opposite direction! The real kicker is that while it is happening it is difficult to catch especially when there is no time set aside for introspection.
I feel this is why so many people suffer from depression. I can see how one could go down the spiral fast. Also, there is a mental attitude in many on a spiritual quest that once they get "it" or some understandings under their belt that "it" stays solid. HA! No, everything is in flux, everything in the universe is in motion.
A person prone to getting down on themselves for falling off track, only furthers the issue, and can set one on that downward spiral - maybe never to return. Anyone who relates to this must work on attaining the belief that we cannot afford to find fault or to hate or to even hold anything against any living soul and that includes our own! Also, the belief that we are all ONE and that there is no such thing in the Universe as separation. Gratitude is my go to because it automatically puts me back into my heart = back on track. What is your way to get yourself back on track?
It is soooo easy to get off track! Our energy fields are so sensitive and we are inundated with all sorts of different life stuff not to mention our world stuff. The way we choose to deal with it is where the distinction is drawn. We can simply react, which is really coming from a place of separateness/fear like we are not connected to those things that are happening. OR we can teach ourselves how to step back and move into that place of Oneness/love and go from there.
THE BIGGEST PART IS TO BE HONEST ENOUGH WITH MYSELF TO NOTICE WHEN IT'S HAPPENING. It is so true that saying, "can't see the forest for the trees". When I'm in it it's hard to process compared to when I am on the other side. It is as if I forgot everything I know when I am in a poor mental state. It usually catches me off guard when my body hurts or I am sick. And here I ask myself which came first the cart or the horse;)? I have to be really strong/honest with myself and do the work to change it and fast!
In order to move in another or new direction when in a negative/overwhelmed/fearful, the state must be changed, which is rooted by some belief inside. My recognition was quick, but I felt like I couldn't get out of it. I even voiced that statement, which kept me there longer. Until, I stopped. I just physically stopped (with a cold to help me stop:) and got my mental state connected back to my heart through gratitude meditation and letting go.
Moving with heart centered awareness is the best healer and turns the direction of life back around instantly even if it's manifestation physically takes a little longer.
Also important to note: I was voicing my gratitude to the universe for this example to help me grow and grateful that it had passed (even before it really had). Seeing done what I desire is a part of the knowing that what I ask from my heart is already in motion and mine. Ask and you shall receive - should read Ask and know that you have already received!
It is a journey and an exciting one!! I just know that it can be difficult because we allow it to be. By getting caught up in the motion of things or the E motion of things disconnected from the heart center where all good comes from, we can have a totally different experience.
I surround you in the gratitude for all your potential realized!!!
No room for doubt... staying connected to our source - LOVE - is our life line and the only absolute.
NAMASTE
XOXOsloan
